adolescence and desperation drives one man to the edge of his heart. i'm in confusion and choking for air. after a nightmare and even after a nap, my heart just cried to not face the truth. it's a one sided love. i've done so much with nothing in return. i wonder how God feels? He's done so much but people who does not know Him does nothing in return. Not that He wants anything material.
i'm alittle out of place here. droopy and all. sigh. i'm sad.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
"introvert... introvert..."
today is a very good day, not the best day, but it's a very good day. even though the activity sucked like usual, being around with close friends is very valuable. i love hanging out at home and lying on the bed stoning and such, but i do treasure some friends that are pretty dear, most of them are not normal normal, as in not the kind you find on the streets, nerds, maybe.
it's a good day, the band people are happy today too, did have lots of laugh but was disrupted by cucumber ziqun. still, it's fun being around with them and the topics discusses, like ben's recommendation, the zangif mario and some master hand. owning man, ultimate laughter. did chat with qiuyun alittle today, but not much, she's like so far away from me. talked to johnny too, about army stuff, now that's over, he's got nothing to worry about.
it's a good day, and everyone poops, qiu yun's favour panda poops. however, flowers dun poop. oh well...
it's a good day, the band people are happy today too, did have lots of laugh but was disrupted by cucumber ziqun. still, it's fun being around with them and the topics discusses, like ben's recommendation, the zangif mario and some master hand. owning man, ultimate laughter. did chat with qiuyun alittle today, but not much, she's like so far away from me. talked to johnny too, about army stuff, now that's over, he's got nothing to worry about.
it's a good day, and everyone poops, qiu yun's favour panda poops. however, flowers dun poop. oh well...
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
everyone poops...
dan picked up a book and showed it to marie...
"everyone poops..."
i made a little giggle over it, didn't know whether qiuyun reacted to it. it's a well spent afternoon with her at plaza sing after doing some studying in school for my webpage documentation. it was last wednesday when i walked to her and...
"when are you free next week? lets watch a movie..."
yup, some minor changes from yesterday to today but all went well. dan in real life is a really heart warming light comedy where you will see a widower and "aunt agony" columnist, dan, going through life with his 3 daughters and trying to guard them with his beliefs. well, of coz it didn't go well. when he reached his dad's place for a family holiday, he met a lady, marie, at the bookstore and fell in love with her prematurely. it happened to be his brother's, mike, new girlfriend. dan tried to fit in and marie too fell in love with him and got jealous at a point where dan went for a blind date.
ha. watch the movie. it's good.
did some shopping with qy and did alot of talking, most probably the same amount of talking with a girl in p+f for 4 months, or i can safely say 3 times of it. i somehow feel safe being with her, compared to other women, i'll get alittle off mood when i'm with the wrong company, and only a handful of women i know by face does this kind of magic. but for now, i've still yet to find someone that i can relate to of the opposite gender, but maybe i wont until i get a girlfriend or a wife, i'll still try to keep my thoughts to myself. went through one spot, yamaha and daiso, and that green fanatic went bananas over a green giant pillow, and panda tape.
"everyone poops..."
coincidentally, i met erwina. didnt see her for donkeys. she looks the same and she's kinda alone standing there waiting for her mom. great to see her, been awhile, 1+ semesters? yeah. long time.
i'm pretty happy today. thanks for the company, qiuyun. indeed finding the right company for the right movie does help. hope she likes the movie too.
"everyone poops..."
i made a little giggle over it, didn't know whether qiuyun reacted to it. it's a well spent afternoon with her at plaza sing after doing some studying in school for my webpage documentation. it was last wednesday when i walked to her and...
"when are you free next week? lets watch a movie..."
yup, some minor changes from yesterday to today but all went well. dan in real life is a really heart warming light comedy where you will see a widower and "aunt agony" columnist, dan, going through life with his 3 daughters and trying to guard them with his beliefs. well, of coz it didn't go well. when he reached his dad's place for a family holiday, he met a lady, marie, at the bookstore and fell in love with her prematurely. it happened to be his brother's, mike, new girlfriend. dan tried to fit in and marie too fell in love with him and got jealous at a point where dan went for a blind date.
ha. watch the movie. it's good.
did some shopping with qy and did alot of talking, most probably the same amount of talking with a girl in p+f for 4 months, or i can safely say 3 times of it. i somehow feel safe being with her, compared to other women, i'll get alittle off mood when i'm with the wrong company, and only a handful of women i know by face does this kind of magic. but for now, i've still yet to find someone that i can relate to of the opposite gender, but maybe i wont until i get a girlfriend or a wife, i'll still try to keep my thoughts to myself. went through one spot, yamaha and daiso, and that green fanatic went bananas over a green giant pillow, and panda tape.
"everyone poops..."
coincidentally, i met erwina. didnt see her for donkeys. she looks the same and she's kinda alone standing there waiting for her mom. great to see her, been awhile, 1+ semesters? yeah. long time.
i'm pretty happy today. thanks for the company, qiuyun. indeed finding the right company for the right movie does help. hope she likes the movie too.
Monday, January 14, 2008
eastern promises... the family is shallow...
gone for a movie with ken on saturday. eastern promises, the mafia fanatic and obsessive blood shook beneath both of our skins. yes. the russian family living within london, and one of the family is as dumb as supporting arsenal in the midst of chelsea nutcases. it went bananas.
it's a very nice movie with a good plot, even though the ending is alittle lack of screen to conclude it, but it's good. 2 different situations merging into one.
"i'm just a driver."
as what most undercover/professional mafia would say. clearing up a mess and preventing the police to identify the body. cut fingers for finger print identification, broken teeth for dental identification, all done and cleared.
"i'm just a driver."
spent sunday at home idling. i'm suppose to do my final report but i didn't. paul didn't do it too, so i think it's a good thing. i guess. haha. lots to do today then. gonna watch dan in real life tml, very excited! i'm like a small kid being excited going to the movies. haha. littlekided.
it's a very nice movie with a good plot, even though the ending is alittle lack of screen to conclude it, but it's good. 2 different situations merging into one.
"i'm just a driver."
as what most undercover/professional mafia would say. clearing up a mess and preventing the police to identify the body. cut fingers for finger print identification, broken teeth for dental identification, all done and cleared.
"i'm just a driver."
spent sunday at home idling. i'm suppose to do my final report but i didn't. paul didn't do it too, so i think it's a good thing. i guess. haha. lots to do today then. gonna watch dan in real life tml, very excited! i'm like a small kid being excited going to the movies. haha. littlekided.
Friday, January 11, 2008
EDvance
yes, EDvance. it starts off with part of my name, kinda sounds like it's my thing ya know, but it's not really related to me. ha. it's education rather thn edomondo.
didnt really work much yesterday after paul and amri manage to pull me back to school to listen a talk about education. so in the morning at approx 8am, i registered for the nus, sim and ntu talk. well, i'm not really keen of going to sim, but it's sandwiched between both nus and ntu. i'm not that keen of going to ntu either, even though statistically the graduates over at ntu yield higher pay than the nus grads.
well, the 3 of us hit school at 10.15am. took a trip down to the convention centre and here comes the id10t, haha, not really an id10t but just a odd ball, teck yang. he registered for the ntu talk about computing technology, can see that he's on 'NTU FTW!' dope, in the morning session but since he saw us, he joined us in the nus. well, the prof is pretty much prof like, in his 50s and 75% bald with a shine on his head and had very thin hair, and does protrays like he's from engineering, well i can quite confidently say that i can see which lecturer is from engineering and which is not. i'm guessing that he's from either electrical or mechanical, he don't look like someone from the chemical nor any life science engineering. i might be wrong though, but just a guess. his talk was informative, kinda shattered by resolution of going into NUS EE, looking that the choice i'm given. well, it didn't happen, not every path is smooth sailing, after showing the pool of courses i can take with my dip. only EE and CE, well, EE for me. i might be going into microE, really wanna touch on optoelectronics, but well, it's in microE, so i need to go into microE. unless i do power! but not really interested in huge and big things, i love delicate things. after that an ex-np and undergrad in nus did a pretty well scripted speech, but very stiff kinda feeling. we retreated for our lunch.
went for lunch and saw kinet. haha. saw in on wed in scc, saw in on thurs in canteen. well, he's pretty bz with jay projecting for their review next week. haha. so we've missed a performance on sunday as well, back to sunday duty, edmund. have a pretty good lunch at canteen 2 and head back to convention centre.
ntu, i must say, is much more well prepared, for the prof that is. but it's not as informative and he didnt really nail the important facts down, rather, he marketed ntu. his empasis, tuition fees and ntu grad gets higher pay. -.- xi yue's bro went on stage as the undergrad speaker for ntu, but he kinda failed. he wasn't spot on and circled around aimlessly. instead of marketing or sharing his experience in ntu, he stood for the PASSION! 'huh?', i went.
well, till now, my desire and aim is still the same, NUS EE. however, i'm still gonna honour God's decision. i'm prepared for it. well, except for not prepared for turning 20 this year. if qiu yun can do it, so can i. i'll laugh at her if she turns *0.
didnt really work much yesterday after paul and amri manage to pull me back to school to listen a talk about education. so in the morning at approx 8am, i registered for the nus, sim and ntu talk. well, i'm not really keen of going to sim, but it's sandwiched between both nus and ntu. i'm not that keen of going to ntu either, even though statistically the graduates over at ntu yield higher pay than the nus grads.
well, the 3 of us hit school at 10.15am. took a trip down to the convention centre and here comes the id10t, haha, not really an id10t but just a odd ball, teck yang. he registered for the ntu talk about computing technology, can see that he's on 'NTU FTW!' dope, in the morning session but since he saw us, he joined us in the nus. well, the prof is pretty much prof like, in his 50s and 75% bald with a shine on his head and had very thin hair, and does protrays like he's from engineering, well i can quite confidently say that i can see which lecturer is from engineering and which is not. i'm guessing that he's from either electrical or mechanical, he don't look like someone from the chemical nor any life science engineering. i might be wrong though, but just a guess. his talk was informative, kinda shattered by resolution of going into NUS EE, looking that the choice i'm given. well, it didn't happen, not every path is smooth sailing, after showing the pool of courses i can take with my dip. only EE and CE, well, EE for me. i might be going into microE, really wanna touch on optoelectronics, but well, it's in microE, so i need to go into microE. unless i do power! but not really interested in huge and big things, i love delicate things. after that an ex-np and undergrad in nus did a pretty well scripted speech, but very stiff kinda feeling. we retreated for our lunch.
went for lunch and saw kinet. haha. saw in on wed in scc, saw in on thurs in canteen. well, he's pretty bz with jay projecting for their review next week. haha. so we've missed a performance on sunday as well, back to sunday duty, edmund. have a pretty good lunch at canteen 2 and head back to convention centre.
ntu, i must say, is much more well prepared, for the prof that is. but it's not as informative and he didnt really nail the important facts down, rather, he marketed ntu. his empasis, tuition fees and ntu grad gets higher pay. -.- xi yue's bro went on stage as the undergrad speaker for ntu, but he kinda failed. he wasn't spot on and circled around aimlessly. instead of marketing or sharing his experience in ntu, he stood for the PASSION! 'huh?', i went.
well, till now, my desire and aim is still the same, NUS EE. however, i'm still gonna honour God's decision. i'm prepared for it. well, except for not prepared for turning 20 this year. if qiu yun can do it, so can i. i'll laugh at her if she turns *0.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
beck, mongolian chop squad, mcs...
been quite a while since i'm crazy over a manga title. it's pretty old title, but the storyline is really good. ok, i may have drooled over the guitars (freaking PRS CU22, Gibson SG, Gibson Les Paul, Gibson Les Paul with 7 bullet holes, Gibson ES335, Fender Stratocaster, Fender Telecaster, ESP Signature models which i dun remember well, some fubar brand called Tibson Les Paul, CF Martin D-45, Gibson Thunderbird, Ernie Ball Stingray and my fav, Gretsch White Falcon.). the storyline got juice too! about this indie band called beck, named after the band leader's stitched up dog, that all the major labels are asked to not approach them by the president of some company or something. it's pretty good, reading them going on tours and how the leader kept going around being a wuss. most of all, how an average boy learnt and play the guitar in the band and how he loved his guitar. it's bananas!
after reading so much, i thought that being in a band is tough, but hell, just play, who cares? it's time to head out, qiang qiang and i will be hitting some local gigs to rekke and see the scene out there. it's pretty stagnant and biased the last time i went to watch local band play, indie and more indie, if not it's some emo rock shit, so need to see about it now.
roar! DO MY TEST! ROAR!
after reading so much, i thought that being in a band is tough, but hell, just play, who cares? it's time to head out, qiang qiang and i will be hitting some local gigs to rekke and see the scene out there. it's pretty stagnant and biased the last time i went to watch local band play, indie and more indie, if not it's some emo rock shit, so need to see about it now.
roar! DO MY TEST! ROAR!
Sunday, January 6, 2008
drums again...
there are a few reasons why i do not wanna play drums for anything. but still, i played today. For GOD! FOR THE WIN! even though it's refreshing and have very minimal mistakes, or rather only 1, that i could think, i still dun think i'm in for drums. it's weird. and there's so many ppl wanna learn how to play the drums.
i don't like it, especially teaching someone playing drums. i do not know where i'm going. i do not know whether i'm going too fast or wat. and one thing about it is that, subconsciously, i feel that ppl are taking it very lightly, kinda like coz it's cool, that's y i learn. or, it dun need to know the notes so it must be easier to learn. similar to bass, "oh, just play the note to substitute the chord can liao, very easy." i'm disappointed. i'm disappointed especially with the sentence, "i'm selling my guitar now coz i'm going to concentrate on bass." or the other way. it's sad.
i'm lost now, i'm not too sure wat is my main instrument. my mind told me it's the guitar, but the other skills are more in demand. church needs bass. i hardly play guitar except for cell. scc need bass and guitar, i hardly play drums coz the ppl scared of me. wat the shit. and all the ppl there aren't improving except winnie. i've been observing, it's winnie that's improving dramatically. sheisser.
i don't like it, especially teaching someone playing drums. i do not know where i'm going. i do not know whether i'm going too fast or wat. and one thing about it is that, subconsciously, i feel that ppl are taking it very lightly, kinda like coz it's cool, that's y i learn. or, it dun need to know the notes so it must be easier to learn. similar to bass, "oh, just play the note to substitute the chord can liao, very easy." i'm disappointed. i'm disappointed especially with the sentence, "i'm selling my guitar now coz i'm going to concentrate on bass." or the other way. it's sad.
i'm lost now, i'm not too sure wat is my main instrument. my mind told me it's the guitar, but the other skills are more in demand. church needs bass. i hardly play guitar except for cell. scc need bass and guitar, i hardly play drums coz the ppl scared of me. wat the shit. and all the ppl there aren't improving except winnie. i've been observing, it's winnie that's improving dramatically. sheisser.
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