coming new year, new age...

i guess it's kinda weird for a guy to be depressing over his age. i'm turning twenty in the year after today. no more '1' as my 1st digit in age, but a '2'. you can say, "this guy siao one, like that also get depressed." well, yeah, i'm siao.

i didnt manage to catch enough sleep last night. told myself to sleep at 11 with my eyes shutting, however, my mind is freaking awake! of course, the i'm still in the lala state mentioned on the previous post, just that part of the focus is on a new composition. i told myself, "ok, i need to sleep, lets not think about the new song." and her image came up. i was quite irritated with myself and i went, "ok, i need to sleep, lets not think about her, no point thinking, you can't chase it." and new words in japanese came into my mind for new lyrics, and it went on and on. OH MY GOSH! CAN'T I JUST FREAKING NOT THINK ABOUT BOTH OF THEM AND JUST GO TO SLEEP?! from my initial plan of sleeping for 7 hours, it came down to 4. i crawled up from bed after my attempts to sleep and swtiched on the computer. and this cocky drummer started to comment that cassis, from the GazettE, is a lousy song. before my bedtime, i tried to hint him that he's crossing some people, not just the fans of GazettE, but younger and new composers who is studying the song, like me. the song is easy to play, yes, i do agree that it's not difficult to cover the song in a short period. the song is a lousy song, absolutely not. considering the degree of arrangement that has be placed in the song and the songs lasting for more than 5 minutes with double solo from uruha and aoi with proper song dynamics and having an addition of a guitar from ruki, it's not an easy feat to do this kind of arrangement. oh, i forgot, he only started drumming last year august and he's self taught. not that it's not possible to reach at a performance standard at this amount of learning time, but if you read in another posts in either the 'post your gear' or 'return of koyuki', he's just a childish punk. wah lao... piss me off in the morning at 12.30am.

i said my goodbyes on msn at around 12.50am. toss and turned till 2 and wah lah... i drooled off to sleep. surprisingly, this is the part that i like about myself, i woke up earlier than my alarm.

i'm in work now. pls sms me if you are sian. coz i'm sian. ha.

knocking off...

i can't seem to force myself to sleep after waking up. she kept running through my mind, even now. aftermath of ladies with makeup on, i'm an easy prey i guess. kinda sad though, now that's over, it's hard to move on, when reality slaps you in the gut that you're in the last year. sheisser. i'll be history. i need to go forward. i'll be leaving something undone coz i'm not bold enough. i'm not good enough. it's a sad thing... if this school is still part of me, i may be coming back as alumni, but without her, where do i stand to come back for a look?

what a hard resolution to make, it's so difficult to plunge another step into the future and it's devastating seeing the clock didn't stop. my initial goal somehow crumble in my state of emotions. NUS or NTU and then no more NP. i must be a stupid person to dwell on this kind of things. so girly.

will you shed a tear for me
to show that you cared
even for a moment with my presence
i want to see your smile

what's staying is this longing
to hold your hand with mine
it seems like i can be the happiest man
Don't forget me just yet

some impromptu lyrics for a chorus... sigh.

concert...

great... some minor screw ups but the outcome is GREAT! the band is GREAT! the crowd isn't that bad, but could be better, blame on the publicity. hahaha.

it's great, i get to talk to more ppl. i'm like the scary dude in scc and i dun like to consider myself in there, unless it's the perks or something. haha. get to talk to alot of ppl other then the usual YAKUZA SOUR. but can say they like dun like me like that leh. sad sia. i'm too fierce i guess. haha. got to talk to qiuyun and ivy more, at least they are friendlier, thanks for the nail polish and assistance in my nail, gorgeous ladies.

great. so now wat? more songs? YEAH! i'm still pretty nooby but i'll keep writing and writing till it stands out. i may even write chinese! HMM!

YAKUZA SOUR ON!

Merry Christmas

heylo my fellow friends. Merry Christmas. Cheers.

back from having dinner with zw and greg and got some drinks. i felt that something or someone is telling me to buy a bottle of drink for my parents. well. i did. it's not expensive, quite a cheap bottle and it's not hard liqueur or some exotic wine brands, just a fruity rum for my parents. my dad's home and i gave it to him.

Dad: "I don't drink."
Me: "I got it for you and mum. Some fruity rum."
Dad: "Buy or get?"
Me: "I buy for you both as Christmas present."
Dad: "Oh, Thank You."

Ain't it cool? MY DAD SAID THANK YOU! haha! i'm so happy that i bought it for them.

JIA YOU! CONCERT'S COMING UP! YAKUZA SOUR!

Merry Christmas my friends, have a blessed week!

work and play

work has been rather... relaxed. it's like going there and then just bum all the way to the end. the project is going to end and i'm just dragging it.

guess what... well, call me a pedophile all you want, I MET UP WITH JOEY TODAY! she's so darn cute like a little doll (pls dun read my blog, joey) and super hyper. i cannot catch up with the younger ppl nowadays, maybe just paul, he claims that he's young and still doing crazy things. i'm so happy to see her, it's been months, like 6 months, and i always told the 3 meimeis i'll be organizing outing. sorry, i've failed, too busy with work. meng xin and mich (not joey), my cca's going to have a concert coming up, so y not come? it's only 6 bucks and i'm performing! yay! *i'm such a thick skin*

well, preparations are still undergoing, i'm still thinking of adding more spunk into my songs and i'm also working on the arrangement of the concert theme. yup, if you're wondering wat is concert theme, it's a song.

you: "OH MY GOSH! YOU'RE WRITING A SONG TO REPRESENT THE CONCERT?!"
me: "yup, you can say so"
you: "YOU SUCK AT SONG WRITING!"
me: "oh well, they asked me to"

it's kinda a big thing man, i've got an excellent vocal arranger, mr steve, and i've came up with my set. i think i'm going to have like 10 vocalist, and i definitely need someone who can lead the singing, coz all i can say is... "you... over there, flat." or "you... over there, shut up". that's it.

honestly, i'm not really in a good mood now. i dunno why. i'm going to see daphne soon this saturday, i'm SOOO EXCITED! yay! YAY!

fragile with the right hand lady.

for once, i saw 2 english songs on the top of the mp chart in the overall section. for once, i'm delighted that someone out there is enjoying my songs more thn the other chinese songs. well, who's john papa? hahaha. if you are in the blog, i'll reveal it to you.

it's me.

put it this way. john('s) papa. haha. me. i'm gonna name my son john whn i have one. humble man in the Lord. well, i do hope that he does not have a broken 5 year relationship though. haha.

i think what my band members should learn is to keep calm and enjoy themselves. every song has a life to live, i guess, and it's up to the members to bring it out. i'm pretty tired of hearing, "oh, i screwed up in the song..." or "shit man, i shouldn't have done that" or even "i'm not in the mood to do it and i think i'll be shitty today". hey man, this is a performance and the song reflects on you. what if one day you perform for some big star as a sessionist for jay chou and thn so happen you are not in the mood or screw up? professionalism, we need to strive for it. even though our technicalities are very shallow, we still have to work on it and put in effort to show it to the crowd. set recovery, knowing how to come back and notice your wrong so as not to bring the set down. practice.

really proud of my band members. gotta work hard and i'm gotta push you guys harder.

jamming fever...

one thing that i really treasure most is jamming. i hope my mates wont hate me. haha. welcome our new drummer! he's ernest fong! hahaha. anyway. i'm sian.

to have it can be a sad thing

ever wondered seeing people up on stage and them playing like demi-gods on their musical instruments? well, can see alot of them really put in alot of hardwork and soul to it, however, there will always be people out there take it for granted. can i not play anything for anyone except for myself? that's pretty self-centered and very much well get shot down by background gossips. well, in this case, NO! i feel like dropping everything. stop playing for anyone but myself. it's very disappointing. if you're new to instruments and thought that knowledge are meant to me share and upon reading this you branded me a "bastard", well, you're too young to understand. nothing is perfect. it's like you taking a cup of water for your friend and your friend just shove it down the drain. HA. NICE? you put your heart and your soul into this and when you want to show it to people, you're shoved aside. it's not about bad comments, harsh criticisms, it's about understanding. you practice and practice till your fingers hurt, your muscle aches, your vocals break, eating into your sleep time, but crap comes. i feel like i'm always in the wrong crowd if i exist in a big one. this makes me hate music.

Is IAP good? or bad? let edmund bring it to points.

just in case you are wondering whether iap is good or bad, i'll bring it down to alittle dots so that you can have a look. of coz, all the points below are imo, in my opinion, so if i ticked you off, stepped on your toe, made you unsatisfied, insulted your favourite supervisor or wat so ever, it's not my fault to start of with, it's your eyes that wanna scan through it.

i'll start of with the bad... since i'm alittle more pessimistic due to alittle skeptism.

BAD things about IAP:
- you need to wake up early every morning and be consistent.
- you need to be sociable, even if you are not one, you have to be one.
- you tick you supervisor off, your supervisor tick your grade off.
- you need to suck up to your boss and do what he tells to you.
- you have a fixed lunch break.
- the supervisor plays you.
- you do extensive miscellaneous tasks like scanning calibration certificates.
- your colleagues may not be friendly.
- hr may black list you if you dun tap out for work.
- pay cuts if late.
- if you get bored, you still have to continue working.
- you don't have time for other activities after work unless you adapt to work life fast.
- you won't get to see as much attractive girls/boys.
- you feel that you're older.

GOOD things about IAP:
- if you're a value for money for education person, you probably learn much more stuff compared to being in school, very much depends on what your supervisor sees in your and gives the tasks that you are going to do.
- pay
- pay
- pay
- you may get some company benefits like free medical consultancy by the company doctor, a ride to work or meal subsidy.
- you feel that you're younger.

i guess that's all, which speaks of why people that went IAP whine more thn being happy. Actually, to be honest, i like IAP! project can kiss my rear, learn sheisser over project.


i'm giving up on her, i don't see anything from her. seems like my efforts are taken for granted and i'm very disappointed. i apologize if you people approached me and i turned you people down, there's always winnie if you wanna learn. i'm giving up, affecting myself too much and spending too much time concerning.

wah lao...

WAH LAO! MY SKIN IS PEELING! AND I'M BALDING! SO MUCH HAIR ON MY WORK DESK! sian... and i'm lovesick.

next week is the last week of the month, meaning, pay cheque is coming! meaning, GOT MONEY AGAIN! also pretty happy that my project structure is ending soon, now what's left are some minor bugs and gets onto my nerves alot. it's the kind of thing you needa edit alittle but the thing is that it takes up alot of time for you to figure out wat to do to it. this sucks man. life is getting better too, even though i'm blacklisted in the hr dept for taking too many research days and they kinda dun like me. this hr lady even diao me man, paul told me. but other thn that, big paul said that i'm pretty good at my work, which is good, i hope. and also hope that's not a lie. maybe i'm just too skeptical huh. or rather adults lie much more thn children? i dunno. keeps me thinking.

kinda got used to waking up super early also kinda sick of it. it's like wat paul depicts as 'no life'. whn you're an executive over there, it's worst. 7.30am report to work, 5pm end work, and most prob you gotta OT, so it's around 6pm you leave. Out of house, no sun. Back home, no sun. become white man sia. mistaken for a caucasian.

i'm way too introverted.. -_-" am i?

i'm not too sure though. i honestly answered all the questions and i'm 95% introverted. i'm a dreamer. OMG! I'M PAUL! paul's a dreamer by nick. i'm a dreamer by identity. only 2 percent of the ppl out there has my personality. how cool is that? i'm damn unique sia. haha.

sian

working is kinda sian. so sian until i dun wanna blog it up. my neck is in a bad shape, so is my right wrist. so sian. very down these days even though work is quite ok. sian.

3rd week over!

shit... i was quite sad after going back to davis to see my baby and realised that it's not an AST-72 and it's a strat with a matching headstock. sigh... so sad. g77 is selling an AST-80, it's so darn nice sia, but so darn expensive, it's like 1488 bucks, like 3/4 more thn the davis jap strats. however, another jap strat caught my attention. it's just a jap strat, WITH A GLOSS MAPLE NECK! so sexy... i like... it's still 850, so i hope no one's bagging it away before i've got the moolah.

i feel so obligated to blog today. haha. 3rd week is over and 19 more weeks to go. it's pretty fun working there even though the rate i'm socialising is really kana sai. very sad though. very routine, meet paul in the morn, 7am for bus 91, 7.15am for breakfast with my beloved curry bun (which they didnt restock and i went without it for 2 mornings, sad!), work at 7.30am till 9, tea-break. after tea, it depends, i can stay in company or go to school or even home for my self-study/research.

God blessed bus 91 DOUBLE DECK AIR CON on friday and thursday! so cool... usually, 91 is single and non aircon, and needa squeeze with alot of operators and staff of p+f, confirm is most of them p+f, you tell me which company starts at 7.30am?

hahaha...

count your blessings....

one think i've learnt this sem.... count your blessings. if you get a B, and thought that you can get A, just look up in the skies and thank God you got a B instead of a C. at least you passed, rite? haha...

Thank God for my results, amen...

woot... research...

i'm taking a break from php and sql now. so much to study. but good that i do not need to be stuck in office. woot.

clubhouse is much neater now, all thanks to the clean up crew, they did a nice job. wat is left for instruments to be cleaned is the drumset. it's dirty. yunyun, if you're reading this, i volunteer to clean it. but if not, i dun care about it. over and out. haha.

camp is over...

went for this year's scc camp. pretty ok i guess. haha. met and get to know some freshies better and hope they dun get a bad impression on me. haha.

anyway, just to let some ppl know, when it comes to helping out to improve you guys and gurls techniques in music, with my puny knowledge, i tend to be pretty serious, so hope you ppl understand. i tend to loosen up when i'm doing fun stuff and trying to be stupid at times, but whn it comes to learning, i'm pretty much stricter. anyway, it's just reflexes, art of God within my soul and attitude.

i come to realise i'm pretty out of reach with love. my lyrics are sustaining on my lost, rather thn being within bliss. i pretty much trashed alot of my lyrics coz it makes no sense. i'm sad. as you can see.

ps. i'm the colgate master... haha... 3 unlucky ones got darlie on their faces! muahaha....

first 3 days....

hi everyone. been alittle tired so i refrained from approaching my computer. life's been good and for once, i liked working. not really for the money, but for the experience. i can feel that superiors want things to be done, so as the inferior, i'm working one it. even though it's pretty stressful to work under my supervisor, he's pretty good, compared to paul and amri, who either do soldering, testing and other stuff that are pretty boring.

1st day was pretty bad, 3 of us were held in the HR meeting room for a briefing and then met up with deen, mr supervisor and head of test planning division, for further briefing. spent the rest of the day reading catalogs, pasting matric codes on some relay boards and soldering.

2nd day was better. i'm transfered to sensoric test planning department, paul remained in test planning device while amri went up to the 5th for test planning surface mount technology. learnt alot from paul, mr supervisior and i dunno wat head. spent the day troubleshooting the motor driver, which is pretty interesting.

today was superb. went through a neck breaking time building my analog current control circuit, spent the whole day. it's very good experience as school dun have this chance, screw polytechnic education, i'm learning more here. hahaha. paul, mr supervisor, is pretty good to me, even though he just push me my duty and i'm on my own to do up my own circuit and finding all the components and stuff, he sat down and explained some of the parts in the driver and occasionally praised me for my work, which is pretty encouraging for an ia student, dun you think?

i'm looking forward for tml, i'm starting to like it over there.

goals... for near future...

hmmm... i'm heading into my iap on monday. hope it will be a good start. i'm already looking forward to buying my baby already. fender japan AST-72. slick looking, absolute sexy. i guess not all people will like it and i'm not too sure how will it sound like. it looks good *duh* and it's pretty much different from the guitars you see out there. it's like jolly shandy, not completely a stratocaster and with a stint of perhaps the black beauty. davis is selling for 850 and please, pretty please, dun touch it. i want it.

iap iap... 730 work... 1730 finish work... even though it's stated 1700 finish, i was told not to go off at the exact time. good 5 months and 1 week of work coming up. God bless p+f...

come to talk

i was thinking, if you're in a situation where it's going to be edging your gut tolerance level, what will you do? haha. 2 years back, i'm a game planner for scc camp, totally freaked myself out during the nightwalk. mandy and i with a couple of incense, mandy's amulet and a candle, going through the nightwalk route. only the 2 of us were walking through and even before we took a step into the corridor, which we expect it to be lighted up at that time but it wasn't.

this time, i'm under johnny's guidance. haha. at first, i was just suggesting to him my idea coz i thought that just nightwalking is pretty boring, and now, i'm one of the station masters and making ideas for the nightwalk. one thing to the making of a good nightwalk is to be the participant spiritually while you plan, knowing what to use to scare and what are the potential loophole during worst comes to worst situations, like missing participant. haha. so, the discussion actually kind shrunk my balls abit before heading home with zhi wei on the bus and yunyun with me on the train.

yunyun managed to talk me out for walking her home, so i'm pretty guilty and worried when my train stop arrives. well, she's still alive at home, so i'm in peace now. haha. sweet dreams my friends.

more jamming coming up, screw sdar for pushing jamming times from 5 onwards, thanks qiang and yunyun for this info. i made 2 enemies, sdar and odex. it's pretty childish to do that, but well, bo bian.

with eyes closed

sometimes when you feel like helping someone, you are just being dragged down by your incompetence. sometimes when you feel like talking tosomeone and you want to encourage her, you are just being dragged down, again by your incompetence. sometimes you worry for her, you wat to reach our your helping hand to save her from her cries, you are stopped... by none other then you incompetence. how sad then yo uwant her to at least see you and have some longer replies from her. how sad...

lack of sleep...

got home this morning at around 5.30am, from pioneer mall. spent the night and part of the day over at macdonalds teaching qiuyun and doing some of my revision. i'm not too sure whether is it a good thing or a bad thing. having a girl to be with you all the way till 5.20am, or teaching her more then you do your work. i'm in a dilemma. was pretty surprised that she learnt pretty fast, can say 1 night and learnt most of the content of the module that i took in year 1. well, for the past 3 days, i've been teaching qiangqiang too, the pimp in the band. wish them the best for tml's ETE! BRING BACK A C GRADE FOR ME PIPS! I LOVE BOTH OF YOU! =.=... the tensions from the lack of sleep

got home and managed to catch some 30 mins of sleep and got up at 7am with yunyun wake up call. BUT! i hit my snooze button and went on for another 45 mins. haha! late for my paper about 10 mins but i managed to finish it with 20 marks of not knowing how to do the qns. i'm so tired.

i found a new way to style my hair. i shall try it tml! haha...

yawn

this week is slack week, meaning i'm not planning to do much work and sleep more. it's pretty good to be that way, even though it does not have any purpose and doesn't contribute to anything. it just feels good.

went to the dentist today. after more thn 3 bloody years, finally, i went into the kid's hell. when i'm like, just like other kids, i hated the dentist. however, whn i'm older in the secondary school, i kinda liked the dentist coz not only you get cleaner set of teeth after the trip, you get to skip some classes too!

so i woke up at 9.45am, washed up and headed down to the dental clinic for filling of a really deep cavity. got there at a few minutes pass 10, registered myself for a walk-in and waited. FOR A BLOODY HOUR! and headed in for hell. haha. it's a long procedure, even though it's 2 teeth that is required to be filled. i'm jabbed with anestatic, my upper lip is still numb, and the dentist start sanding off the top of my teeth. 45 mins later, it's done! yay... no more cavities!

heading down to ben's for a hair cut tml. rocks, new hair. new rock!

God bless...

i guess some of you guys know i'm still pretty aggressive in my speech, especially coming from my band members *points fingers at them* for influencing me with jrock. but man, yakuza sour rocks. had jamming yesterday and tried something new, nothing much, just pumping in some distortion with some usual chords i play. the huge leap is from some usual sad kinda feel of love song to a power pack slow rock chinese song with numerous screaming from qiang qiang, our band's vocalist and womanizer in my point of view *haha, jkjk lah*. qiang qiang is a good guy, he very good one, he not womanizer lah, it's just that girl get attracted to her, sometimes i too feel alittle jealous about it. had a very good time jamming and we're attempting on a new song, our debut original. dunno how will it sound like, i'll mainly do the arrangement, let qiang qiang do the melody, chinese lyrics and vocal. superb!

finally, project is kinda over, left the report to be completed. superb, but i kinda lazy to write the report sia. Thank God for being with me all these time, really feel the peace even though i was about to break down again yesterday troubleshooting the joystick. ha. alot of plastic fumes encircles around my table due to my soldering iron accidentally melting the plastic of the joystick. Bless God.

youth song on the roll, yeah yeah yeah...

problems are gifts

baybeats was a blast. it was my first time there and i only caught 2 items. pretty stupid to be in the city with jay and ken in the afternoon to loiter around the wcg area and to find daphne, which turns out that she's not in good spirits due to the lack of sleep so i kinda left her after i said hi, pretty bad me i think. got home and stoned till david elliot pestered me to go for baybeats, to catch blindside. heavy metal christian rock band from sweden. so, called up kian and jay, met them up and went to esplanade, catching up was ken when we're in hmv and qiang qiang in the nokia stage. the nokia stage was the wrong venue! DUDE! some solo acoustic guitarist was there playing some slow contemporaries. but the good thing is, i saw a really cute girl, can't help myself to not stop glancing at her, ken even caught me alot of times when i turn to my left to have a glimpse. very cute and pretty. it's that kind of environment where you are in some soft acoustic music and you saw this pretty girl. pretty romantic eh? sounds pretty lame too.

and of coz, we realised that we're in the wrong venue when it's 10.40pm and the guitarist was still playing. jay helped me to seek the real venue and we rushed there, missing out the mosh pit and was really at the back. i could see elliot being carried up and after that he stood just under the nose of BLINDSIDE! OH MY GOSH! this is the first time i have enjoyed metal so much. it's very good. christian (the vocalist) sings and screams with quality. really good live, really good. they probably started out from live gigs and now with 9 albums. got their album after the live, the great depression. WOOT! rocks. it's not too heavy for me and i kinda progressively liked it. i'm not too used to metal yet, so i guess it's a great start. they dun have alot of solos to begin with, most of it is the choice of chords and notes, very good stuff.

thanks jay and ken for the part sponsor of the album. superb stuff.

was in church today. don't really know why i actually wanted to go and do sound duty in replacement for meng yock. i don't know why am i called for this ministry either, it's the most humbling ministry ever. i think this is how i get my composure. i can safely say that only hardcore ppl enjoy doing sound duty, and darren, you're one hardcore lad, it's a good thing. got there and God was ahead, i can feel it. i wasn't sulking or not wanting to do, i was actually quite enjoying it till i have to go down to youth for drumming. got back up after drumming for michael watson's sermon. really superb, this is one of the times where i feel that God welcomes me into church. i felt really blessed as his sermon applied directly to my current situation, which i really thank God that i actually came up to main service for sermon. God's way.

problems are gifts. like an eagle, we can't just stay in the nest and be spiritually fed, sleep and spiritually fed again. we need to move and grow, like how eagles learn now to fly. we need to grow.

if God is with me, project will not be against me. lets go PV05, complete the project tml.

packing up is pretty good today too, not sure why, it's God. bless Him.

debut at convention centre

well, even though it's not our gig, but it rocked! that's the point. after 3 weeks of hard practices, coming back to school on weekends and me screaming at my band members, the day finally arrived and we rocked it! the crowd cheered, and we played. it's a pretty good feeling, getting to know some people over there and irritating the stage managers. haha. bless pei xin man, for her being crazy over this event, so is rui ting.

i do feel that the weeks in school is getting shorter and shorter, and i really and fully enjoyed my time in scc. with the band and alot of playing, it rocks big time and now i'm 3 weeks to exams, and 5 weeks to 6 months industrial attachment. i'll miss them man, miss the MP and stuff. it's pretty much being sheissery. everyone's improving in YAKUZA SOUR. superb, let it last man, let it last.

now i wonder, am i taking the plunge or not. i'm so restricted. get girlfriend must be some christian girl. sheisser, how to find? sad.

amanda bynes, yui, where are you?

superb rehearsal...

YAKUZA SOUR... that's the name of the rearranged band. qiang qiang and i will be vocaling, ken on rhy guit, jay on bass and our beautiful yet mysterious xh on drums.

superb rehearsal today, both in church and in school. best is in school, duh. haha. my 30 ft long cable is able to accommodate my exit from the clubhouse away from the jamming area. qiang qiang also have a long cable, enuff to exit the room too. haha. it's pretty rare to see our beautiful yet mysterious xh laugh, coz ken, jay and qiang qiang were playing emo, and i kinda accidentally faced away, so pretty emo rite? after that practice some retarded song called forever young. i guess childish words and vocals from the single might turn out to be pretty deep, but it's kinda plain stupid to like sing words like "bomb". haha.... *coughwthmanwhytheywannasingthatdumbsongcough*

enjoyed my day today man. well, i'm still in the "fatboy in love" mood. ah... damn cute rite?!

feeling for love again

well, it's kinda weird to see this fat dude wanting to love a girl. don't it? i mean most ppl will be disinterested in this coz i guess it's just media influence. i'm neither handsome nor fit. neither interesting nor mysterious. however, i've got the same feelings as all hot blooded male do. well, put aside the hentainess and *hurhur* ness.

in short, i'm in love. OKAY! HAPPY?! well, i can safely write a couple of love songs now. not that ballad, mellow mellow kind, more of a soft rock feel like more than words and you and me. with some sentences like "i'll drop my goodbyes with my feelings inside." probably. sounds pretty mushy from a fat man rite?

come to think of it, i'm pretty restricted, in a crude way. i can only go out with christian girls. that's a challenge. i wouldn't risk missionary style, unless God goes like "ED! GO DATE THAT GIRL! I'LL MAKE HER IN MY KINGDOM WITH YOU AS THE BLESSING! MUAHAHAHA!" something like that, thn i'll be pretty convinced that she's going to be somewhat mine, or for a time period.

well, fat ppl falling in love is really not interesting rite? come to think of it, it's pretty depressing.

SHEISSER! TIME TO HEAD TO SCHOOL!

COSFEST 2007

i dunno how to describe, it's the best cosfest i've experienced!!! ok, it's my 2nd, so ought to be the better one.


the day started alone in bk, till jinjin comes. haha. as usual, alot to chit chat. after that more came and kaien, best, the spear! headed to change and then pretty much clicked with nanao (meng xin), yachiru (joey), hinamori (michelle), kaien (kuroikabuto) and d-roy (ichi). super fun..

go to sgcafe, check out the pics! haha...

busy week

been very busy this 2 weeks, especially the one that is going to pass. i've been home late, monday's for frisbee, wednesday's for scc, friday's for avionics. the other 2 days are really dedicated to project, which still fails to work. thursday was a killer, in school at 8.45am, left school at 11.30pm. killer man. it's a 14hr work day. no time for dinner, so feed on biscuits. butter biscuits that dinosaur ong claims that it's some low class consumption product. what the heck, it's good loh, it's even packaged nicely in 3 pieces a pack. even better than some of the more expensive looking biscuits that don't even have proper packaging.

well, i'm in school, on a saturday, where people rest in their homes and slack all they want, i'm here doing my projects. well done edmund. shall nail AVPD today. GOD SAVE US!~

super wallet by web

yesterday, web punked me. i knew it was coming whn they took out the blindfolds for cliff and partner. well, i was the partner for the sabotage. sat there and was fed with fries covered in salt, curry sauce and chili sauce. wanna try?

was super touched by their gift. it's a wallet! well, not exactly a wallet. haha. it's a paper wallet! made with care by bro horng ann. superb. got 10 dollar and 5 million note summore. hurhur.

before cell, it was very saddening. went to clubhse only to see my song got last for arrangement. i wonder, is my arrangement that bad? or the audience dunno wat is song arrangement. sheisser!

19 finally!

welcome 19... yeah...

i'm pretty thick skinned today. i thought there will be somebody going to bug me in the morning at 12 to say happy birthday to me, but there isn't. i got up at 6 and i was actually, and honestly, very very sad. can't sleep, so i laid in bed waiting for my 1st happy birthday. none. got up at 6.45, and wash up. dad indirectly wishes me happy birthday, thks dad, by placing a 50 dollar note on the table where he reads his paper. that's for dinner. haha. momma also indirectly wishes me happy birthday. but i headed out too fast and missed her ang (more like golden than red) bao.

headed to school and reached there at 7.50, door was locked. 1st person that sent me happy birthday was jenny. i let out a slight smile, saying to myself that at least someone still remembers me. was in class the 1st and checked the boards. headed out for lunch with ceyao and thn the 2nd greeting came, from horng ann and dawn. i was alittle happier.

today was pretty intensive, did my work all the way, 8-5, with only 2 short breaks for breakfast and lunch. after that, i headed home alone and went for dinner.

dinner was superb. been quite some time since i saw both iggy and vando. iggy looks the same, haha, vando got her hair dyed. eat a hell lot with them and my bro. ceyao missed it man! went down to jp to play after dinner. superb.

i'm super tired now. haha. need sleep. also pretty disappointed also. well, i'm forgotten after being in the club for the 3rd year. i'm not going to help out anymore.

roller coaster...

it's been quite a thrill ride for the last week. chionging project and doing alot of work. pretty much a killer, considering i'm heading back to school later for more work to be done. haha. it's quite fun actually, i dunno y. i think God is there for me, even though i've come to a point of depression and ruining my toenails in the night. i'm attempting to pull them or cut them out. haha. it looks really bad now though.

i was thinking for quite some time. have my personality changed? actually, it did, i observed myself. quieter when i'm outside the my social circle, and i'm not as noisy as i was. *seriously, i cannot keep up with the year 1 girls in school, not to say joey and mich in kuroichou* i'm in the sea of introverts in school and i'm influenced! or maybe i'm not really influenced, rather, i'm further influenced! muahaha.

i also came to realise that i've gotten more technical in music also. not very, i'm still noob, but trying to strive for a higher standard. played jazz with mandy and max yesterday and i was pretty dumbfounded, coz i'm not versed in jazz. it was very pretty, getting to hear jazz and of coz, whn you play it, you get even higher. who goes soloing for a jazz song? haha. keeping up with all the dom 7s, driven by max's guitar and keeping up with the tempo being sustained by mandy. super fun man.

gonna head down to school soon. my God bless this day, so much that i can bless His people. Amen.

low in spirits

i've been alittle down lately. it's kinda a psychological thing. alot of pips know that i've got rashes for the past week. and actually, the rash kinda spreads all the way from my inner thighs out and from my under arms all the way to my tummy area. it's kinda depressing whn you get this kinda dotty red things, they are called hives, around your body and you dunno whether will they heal. it's pretty sad to see it man. gonna see doctor today again, hope he prescribe a stronger prescription for me and God see me a route for these hives to heal. sigh.

boredem

Create your own Friend Test here

how should i know?

arh, shit. how do you feel whn someone is emoing. especially he/she is your friend. it's pretty difficult to be in that stand actually. screw it.

jamming... again...

today was pretty ok, i think. but i felt that bassing the same song over and over again using the same scales is pretty boring. pentatonic, pentatonic and more pentatonic. it's very repetitive though. it's quite fun too, played with max and hui jia. her expression was priceless whn we hit the jabs, she just stopped and stared at us. haha. hope all of us learnt something today through jamming. i really like jamming nowadays, especially just drums and bass. just pure pounding on both sides, shannon with some weird rhythm and i'll be struggling to keep up with him. as for mandy, i'm more comfy, coz he's not at shannon's crazy caliber, which i can relate to him quickly. all very fun.

last wed, charlene's pop chinese, performance wise was pretty messed up but the preparation was very fun. got funny funny chords and i try to break my pentatonic scalings as my fill-ins. sounds pretty good for starters, but very boring for pips that really want variation. my bass solos as well, boring, pentatonic boredom. break it baby!

cant wait for attachment for the cash. new bass new bass! hope there's some good deals for 2nd hand basses, i'm looking out for stingray, MIJ Fender JB. slap machines. the squier's pretty in bad shape now, dun wanna go for repairs coz the difficulty is there for my finger training, so whn i hit on a better guitar, i get to perform better, i hope.

by next sem i should get a bass teacher, since sean got nothing much to teach, except for music theory and some guitar stuff. wah, come skills, come... can i go pro then?

play the funky music!

yesterday was superb. it's 7.30 pm at the waterfont in esplanade. JIVEHOLICS! haha. i dun know whether i spelt it correctly, the poster spelt it worst, JAVAholics. haha. it's superb man, the live and all, particularly their 3rd set, where it comprises of fast pace music, funk and even latin. if i can get my foundation right, i may wanna take a step into latin, even though it sounds like the classy classy kinda music (i'm a poor boy, not rich, just amazed by latin), i wanna try it out and play with it.

there's a few weird stuff yesterday though. the soundman, i think he's from DXO. bloody boost the bass drums till i can feel my jeans vibrate, and boost the highs in the hi-hat. too much vibs till one of the speakers fell off from it's position, which is on top of another speaker.

"i can make this shit move" - matilda

if you wonder who's that, think of singapore idol. haha. YES, IT'S HER! she's able to stretch her vocals man. superb. *bai bai* haha... really good vocal.

after the live, we went for food and YES! CARL'S JR! thn hit the last train home and it was already 1 in the morning. it's great!

band name

sean seems to be quite busy nowadays so i think the band kinda put to a halt. so, i've formed a new band. haha. really new band. drummer just learnt HER drums last year and bassist just learnt bass this year. so it's very new and all of us are very inexperienced. even though i dont think this is a business thing, i hope we can really improve as a band. play simple and improve in dynamics, techniques and theories. it's pretty much an improvement programme. still searching for a band name as usual. haha. was thinking of calling it lingerie talkshow, but it's pretty obscene, so scrapped it. haha.

went to church today as usual, same row of seat and head to taman for lunch. finished gun x sword at kian's, pretty nice anime. haha. thn home now.

funk beats...

i do not know why but i was constantly discouraging myself in my own works. i guess i dun really have that much esteem and even though i have my pride, i'll just let things slip away and not pursue further. i feel kinda like pope john, i dun mean i am or any other humbling characteristic of him (he's like superman), when he got shot and he forgave the person who shot him. just a thought, does this really happen in the real world within most of us nowadays? it's a dilemma to me, to choose between pride or humbling myself and let people step on me, eventually things will start to go no where. situation wise, if you choose pride, you cannot really expect what the person's reaction will be. what if he just blasts at point blank and you not only have to defend yourself, you got your reputation shattered in front of all your superiors, inferiors, juniors, seniors, etc. so how about humbling yourself? you too will not expect what the person will do (again), instead you will just get stepped over.

projects been quite fun actually, even though i'm like way behind others. haha. super behind. but it's fun. paul and danial needa get their work done, leiyun needa get programs done and i needa get my Keil C and some boards done. ADC is working! 1 down, 6 more boards to go. woohoo.

frisbee

omg, i cant play frisbee anymore. i'm like the person that i first been whn i touched a frisbee. the adrenalin. the "shiokness". woohoo. just wanna play frisbee again, didnt really touched it for months and i cant aim.

even though i only touched the disc twice (coz i'm in the stronger team where i'm dragged by benny's friend), i still feel kinda happy coz i'm like, "i'm playing frisbee again!". haha.

ok, time to relax. oh. i saw a roll royce on tuesday night. i was like, "THAT IS IN SINGAPORE!" well, not everyday you can see a rolls royce on the sg streets. it's a moving millon dollar.

holiday...

well, the title does not really contribute to the post. i'm not having a holiday anyway. project days are just there to waste your time away where you actually bring things home to work on. i just wanna get it over with, just put aside all my laziness and work on it. actually, i did review myself. Even though i told everyone i'm lazy, i realized i did pretty much work.

Why edmund is not a lazy bum:
- he does his home work
- loves to enhance his reports
- practices the bass guitar at least once every 2 days, most of the time, daily
- thinks about project
- playing a leading role (i think) in the project
- fills the ice tray when it's emptied
- does house chores
- cooks


Why you think edmund is a lazy bum:
- he's fat
- has a huge appetite
- does not exercise frequently
- desires keep to the 8 hour sleeping rule
- keeps long hair


so do you still think i'm a lazy bum?

i've this feeling that i should just keep away from cell group or even young adults meeting. it's the devil? or it's just the feeling that i just wanna stay put on one spot, not being pushed by anything and take steps without a rope attached to my neck and dragged by a donkey? i dunno man.

oh, i found this chio bu in scc. dunno whether can i know her or not. haha. she seems popular.

project day... week 2

i'm in my project day for week two. during my review kinda fubared coz i crashed the plane! arh! bloody hell. well it's visual flight rules summore. (for all the non-aerospace junkies, it means flying without instruments, just by sight. which should be much more easier then IFR, instrument flight rules, where you need to monitor a few instruments at one go to make sure you're on the right track.) well, it's pretty weird, i crapped in my VFR but i did well in my IFR. shish man! but now, project 2 time.

gonna make up a checklist for today and the week, i think i'm gonna do all the processor programming by this weekend or something. i'm also kinda broke, not too sure whether i can even go to church with the amount of cash in hand rite now, not talking about the amount in my student card. but staying at home and do work is good! provided that next week tuesday is labour day and wedensday do not need to come to school coz it's e-learning week for all inter-disciplinary study modules. ROCKS!

yesterday was pretty good, or i can say pretty good jamming. for quite some time i didnt have the hype in my life. i hope i didnt like bored shannon and sean out coz of my noobness or something. but it's really fun, even though it's short. haha.

JAZZ COME ON! JAZZ COME ON!

arh! i'm so stupid!

you know what can ruin my day big time? not being able to play my bass without any painful distractions. and all you depressed people out there, i mean literally painful. shit man. i shouldnt have done it.

i was out for lunch with binny and kian, just like last week. why dont go with the church friends? coz taman jurong food is cheap and good. with the amount of money spent in great world, i can probably get 2 servings that comes with a "taste grade" higher than what i'm going to have in great world. best of all, it's near my home, so i get to head home, take a bath, and go for lunch. anyway, lunch was good. kian bloody hell ate in total of 3 mini claypot of food, 2 soup and 1 chicken rice. it's pretty worth it. 3 bucks, you've got rice, chicken, some lap qiong and shitake mushroom. the shiok factor is there. wonderfully made for the tongues that desire good food and not bothering about the environment heat.

it was after lunch that binny and i headed to kian's hse. i was playing with a cigarette torch. binny said that torch uses batteries to light up a fuse. well, just in case you dunno how it works, i'll give you a brief thought. imagine you have a light bulb fuse, thn you light it up. when it's light up, blow in your gas, or kerosene, and it will give you the same effect as your 50 cents lighter. kian placed his finger on top of the fuse and it didnt hurt him, so i'm pretty convinced that it's harmless. NOT! i got burnt instead. i wasn't really burnt actually, but i'm having blisters on my index finger! how to pop sia?!

man... where is PCF8592, come out come out wherever you are...

welcome to ngee ann poly... i'm year 3 and you are year 1.

it has already been a week. 2 weeks of year 3ness and 1 official week of year 3ness. i'm still not feeling it. the year 2 self is still within me. i bet roger, alvin and some of the pips in the gang are still feeling it this way. the only difference is the amount of workload that is presented to us is much more humongous compared to the honeymoon days there the sun is shining and the butterflies are flattering around. now, we feel the hard gravel under our soles, no more carpet grass, not even weeds. like what ming kiat said, "welcome to hell"

project 1 was nearly completed. i'm left with the flying review and i'm not too confident yet. well, the explanation can be done easily and i'm actually more comfortable with the instrument flight rules, compared to visual flight, coz instrument flight lets you know your airspeed, altitude and attitude of the plane, whereas visual flight rule you can only look as the ass of the plane and land with the view of the plane's ass. the only part that i'm still not good at with IFR is the landing. gotta practice more.

now about project 2. i'm freakingly assigned by the that supervisor ng dude, who asked me to add another 4 pages in my report as flight procedures, to be the team leader. i've got no idea what to do and what is going to be as we proceed to project 2. in 2 words, "we're screwed". you can consider it 3 if you want it to be "we are screwed". however, i do believe that by God's grace, we'll make it through. Hallelujah!

needa rest man. i'm freaking tired. and seriously, i'm missing someone but i'm trying to tell myself, "ah hock, you're lying".

10 reasons why being bad is better than good.

1. You do things that allows you to break the law but the good gotta follow the law even though they are catching you.
2. You don't need to wait to get big money.
3. You die satisfied with all the things you did that is bad in the society point of view.
4. Good guys die following the law, chasing after you and stressed out solving your plots.
5. You can kill the good guys asap while the good guys need approval.
6. Good guys need to work 8-5 with alot of OT and maybe even the weekends.
7. You don't need to care about firing your gun in public.
8. You will get big money.
9. You will get big big money.
10. You will get big big big money.

project week day 1

flew simulator day and running errands for club. super boring and it feels very nostalgic to see all the to be year ones running around.
saw tanya in camp today and saw chester going to the pool, and me, running errands for sdar.

fact:
do you know gym balls take more than 5 mins to pump even we have a motor pump?

and it's pretty ridiculous sharing it. we have 15 gym balls to pump and the other group from edmund oh have more thn 200 normal shaped balls to pump. y does orientation need so many balls? haha.

i realise year one is pretty hyper, then year 2 it's kinda taking it slow. so here i am, year 3... what's installed for the oldies and i? even if i'm able to get a girlfriend at this stage, i'll probably not have a long term one coz i'm heading into ns after this. sigh...

good morning Singapore

haha. this is the catchphrase for a morning radio show. i mean what brings sleepy heads up in a car other than a cuppa coffee?
ok, i just woke up and today is going to be quite a day coz i've gotta do some research. i'm still alittle sleepy and not exactly hungry even though lunchtime is gradually approaching. the sun seems hot today and the streets are pretty much filled with bigger vehicles other then car, like trucks and vans. pavements are not filled and lakeside mrt station is alittle empty.
well, yesterday night, i think i destroyed sean with music theory. not me teaching, but he teaching me. he so pro how can i teach him? haha. well, he taught me about the mystery of a flat7. why does boogie woogie walking basslines have a flat 7? pretty much done with my 2 weeks of assignment for avionics club. now left with meeting the big shots and planning for activities. hope it goes well, if not ceyao will come screeching at me and maybe even knock me down with his car and me flying 1000 feet across the road and thn scratch myself on the road for another 250 feet for friction to stop. pretty bad for failure. may God be there, i'll have faith that everything will go well.
peace out...

when old friends meet...

i guess it's not really old. it's binny and emily. both like see them every week. one to play and one in church. which one, i'll let you guess. anyway, met them up in jp yesterday. had quite a talk though, with all the occasional friendly insults hurling at one another.

met up with yubin, he's still straggling over one initial d opponent, for 8 bucks! HAHA... after that went for lunch at long john thn to harvey norman and thn popular to see some cds. emily called and confirmed her presence in jp and met us. we went to eat again. sigh. fat liao. at pizza place, which has surprisingly good pizzas. i kinda pressured the auntie asking for her recommendation in the pizza flavour. haha.

kinda went well, and they maybe coming to my place today for lunch. wanna join us?

year 3

it's just recently i found out that i'm going to be year 3 next year. found out as in really be on the path that leads to the end of poly. i was thinking, "shit i'm old".

year 1 i was playing around and warcrafting every night.
year 2 i was pretty playing around and always mind about my sleep. (the 8 hours a day golden rule)
so now in year 3, what am i going to do about it?
i still feel like a year 1 or maybe a year 2 student. totally 1 year lag. i like some childish things like going around disturbing people, but i'm feeling that i'm pretty serious about some stuff now and i really treasure rest. I ignore minor things and dislikes lame jokes from lecturers who wants to make the class livelier. -.-... about that, i had a bad experience yesterday.

sigh, i'm old and i'm going to ns soon in a year. can't i don't grow up. i wanna be forever 18. *hurhur*

crystal jade

thks to yubin, i think i put on 5 kilos today. haha... crystal jade rocks man! 30 bucks vouchers and another additional 7 bucks can get both of us fat like pigs. haha.

2 beef sliced chili oil ramen, 1 pan fried xiao long bao and 1 stew beef with steamed xiao long bao. by the time both of us finished our ramen and the pan fried xiao long bao, we were full. and there comes the last dish. this is the dish that yubin and i will never regret ordering. i mean it's the best combo we can find. stew beef topped with their signature dumplings. it's like a brief image of heaven. the next time i'm going to crystal jade, i know what to order. one plain bowl of ramen and that stew beef with steamed xiao long bao. that'll will cost around 15 bucks with gst and service. maybe add a glass of tea, which will cost you 92 cents, with service charge and gst. haha. i'm calculative man. haha.

so with 16 bucks, you can eat like a king, y not? kenny rogers quarter set with a drink will cost you 16.50. so if you're chinese and you feel rich that day, y not go for my recommendation? it's good ya know?!

man, the RC heli is giving me problems man. ARH!~ damn dumb 1mm dowel. the whole heli is quite screwed. the design of the main shaft to the main rotary gear is only connected by one pathetic 1mm metal dowel. i need a replacement fast man. shish...

Avionics camp

like anyone that attended the camp would say, "this is a bonding camp, aka avionics chalet"

it's pretty good i think, for a start. at least communication is there. got to know jia jun and daren better. the whole "chalet" is pretty relaxed. we did have a formal meeting with addition to extra lecture on eurocopters by meng kiat, some soccer activites with pranks like colgating vic and teck yang. we got our own ghost too. lol... amri with a white tudong and powdered face.

i still think the best parts of the "chalet" is ps2 time and the eurocopter trip. it's cool! they did a major inspection on a super puma. meaning strip down to the very skeleton of the helicopter. they even buy damaged helis that are able to come back to life again, like the crashed korean coast guard helicopter. the cockpit of a dauphin is pretty cool. there's alot of controls man, got 2 sticks and your rudder pedal. woohoo... be a maintenance engineer now! lol...

alot of work to do man. tired!

it's sunday!

as usual, i woke up early for church today. but nothing much is different except for a spoiled snare i fixed, disturbing and being disturbed by jenny and darren, and being edified by the word today.

it's pretty funny whn i'm with jenny. coz you do not know wat to expect from her. she was like, "edmund, read my watch" and her watch is pretty interesting coz it's not normal. the hour hand jumps around. i'm like a mountain mushroom. i was pretty in a happy mood today. dunno y, but alittle lack of medication. i was pulling out darren's bulletin and taking the flyers and passing it to jenny with a thumbs up. the flyers are ladies' breakthrough weekend (well, relevant) and something about parenting (completely not relevant). she's pretty funny today too.

went to wheelock with wei xiong after lunch. and we're both "dead men walking"ing. i'm totally shacked. he got his 777 witht e ZHENG HE sign at the front. i was quite surprised, coz i thought he got the boeing standard painting, but he got the ZHENG HE in the font. muhahaha...

tml camp! yay!

music and lyrics...

went out with yuki yesterday to catch a movie. pretty fun to go out with little nuke, especially she's like a cute little dollie jumping around. it's pretty good being around her coz she's fun to talk to and her presence kind of lets you feel jumpy and excited. i do admit that i'm alittle quiet when we met for lunch. i'm not very adaptive when i'm with a girl, so she started of 1st, which made me very comfortable.

went to cathay and caught a movie, music and lyrics. it's superb. rating's 3, but yuki and i rated 4. very light hearted and unique, and i think it's pretty realistic. i mean where's your inspiration in songs? it's everywhere. even the domestic worker that waters your plants every week can be your inspiration. i hope yuki enjoyed it. hold on... yeah, she enjoyed it. especially the part where hugh went, "this is meant for humans". that's the best part of the movie. there are other funny parts too. i'll keep them away from you pips, just incase you don't want me to spoil it.

went down to p centre to get some guit stuff, and both of us went yacking all the way back to plaza sing. she can't make it in time back to walk the dogs, so we went back to p centre area. up and down up and down. haha. and guess wat. we went for pool. i still remember the last time i played with her. she won me, i was pretty shocked. coz it's the 1st time a girl won me in pool. ~pride~ ~pride~... i'll not reveal the score for this time, it's a good game i guess. a really nice time with her.

headed back to ps and enjoyed aircon, and yacked away about food. man, i do admire her. she's strong at will and most importantly, SHE CAN COOK! BANZAI! the cookies she made for the team, were superb. too bad ben didnt have it, he left it in my bag and forgot to take it so i ate it! double portions! yay! it's pretty hard to say goodbye as the day ended. mou~

well, exams, so gonna slp. night all...

results...

CREDIT
MODULE UNIT GRADE ATTEMPT REMARKS

DATA COMMUNICATIONS & NETWORKING 6.00 B 1
FLIGHT THEORY AND AIRCRAFT SYSTEMS 5.00 A 1
INNOVATION & ENTERPRISE IN ACTION 4.00 PX 1
MICROCONTROLLER PROGRAMMING&INTERFACING 6.00 A+ 1
PROJECT DESIGN PRACTICE 6.00 A 1


RESULT: Passed

IMPORTANT

• Any request for review of result must be submitted to SSIC (Blk 1, The Atrium) on 14, 15, 16 or 19 March 2007. Appeal against dismissal or appeal for transfer of course must be submitted to the School/Division. Request for review or appeal received after 19 March 2007 will not be considered.
• The official examination results slips will be mailed to you on 14 March 2007 if fees for the October 2006 semester have been paid by 5 March 2007.
• Your IS Module Enrolment Appointment is on 28-Mar-07 from 08.00 AM to 09.30 AM (SGP Time).

LEGEND

AD - DISTINCTION	PX - PASS IN MODULES GRADED PASS OR FAIL ONLY
A+ , A - ACCEPTABLE	ABS - ABSENT
B+, B - BAD	DB - DEBARRED
C+ , C - CAUTIOUS	EX - CREDIT EXEMPTION
D+, D - DEADLY	TRF - CREDIT TRANSFER
F - FAIL

i'll just praise God for it. still can go to uni. yeay!

you wanna die?

if you're will in time, look at my tag board and you will see binny's tag. "you wanna die?"
well, i was thinking, wat if you cannot die?


edo's "wat if you cannot die" thought:
- you probably clinch the guiness world record for the oldest living person on earth.
- you probably clinch the guiness world record for the oldest living thing on earth.
- you probably clinch the guiness world record for the most damage done on the body and not die.
- you probably clinch the guiness world record for the longest breath where you're actually drowned in the water, but remember, you can't die.
- cars are made to dodge you.
- trains are made to dodge you.
- you probably tried to kill yourself when you're 1000 years old but you can't coz you can't die.
- you're probably in the army in some 1 man show thingy, much better then commandos.
- you probably got shot by guns 1000000000000000000 times.
- you probably tried cosmetic surgery every year for a face lift.
- you probably drink botox.
- if you're a musician, you probably are a demi-god legendary instrumentalist.
- you probably wanna die after 10000000000000000000000 years.
- you probably travel around the world 100 times.
- you probably have growing limbs.
... and the list goes on...


went for pool after lessons today. superb, i improved. lost 3 and won like 6 or 7. lost to roger, benny and vic, but i won them during play. one of the shots where it's teck yang verses roger (i think it's roger), he's left with the black and the white is at some awkward position. the black is just next to the pocket and that shaizer demanded to use a rest. so i came and bet a bottle of coke with him. he got owned... muahahaha... truly, it's an awkward position, but it's "shootable". lol. happy day!

sunday madness...

4.10am: got up and changed my alarm to 5am
5am: alarm didnt ring, managed to get up and changed to 5.15am
5.10am: got up finally, off alarm, bathe
5.30am: pack up and went out of house.
5.45am: got cab and head to emily's place.
6am: cabbed with emily headed to dawn's place.
6.15am: in tan boon liat, still sleepy, depending on muscle memory
~6.15-6.35am: warm up practice with the band
6.35-8.15am: prayer meeting commences, worship set went pretty well, just that we didnt have time to finish the whole set, finally woke up after alittle jamming with the band
~8.15am: took a breakfast packet and passed chicken wings to eze and ate half of the packet while walking to get a drink, met junyi in shell station.
8.30am: midst of setting up main service.
9.30am: drumming for 1 pre-service song which i sucked out due to lack of experience
~9.45am: heading to the washroom, saw jessie and i think she's mad at me for not being able to answer her call yesterday. (i'm sorry jessie, saturday was really packed and so is today, really sorry)
10am-12noon: service
12noon-~1pm: tore down main service and packed up. went to great world for lunch.
~1pm-~2pm: subwaying with darren, coz the food junction is too packed and i doubt there are seats for the both of us. subway rocks my socks.
~2pm-~4pm: nua with the 2 cell leaders and some of the young adults
~4pm-~5pm: sweet joy ride by patrick to darren's place thn to bukit panjang to drop me off.
~5.30pm: got down 1 stop before the actual stop.
6pm: home sweet home.

as you can see, i had more thn 12 hours of madness today. really sorry to jessie and feli for not being able to play for kids, i'm packed to the brim, please forgive me. i got my pair of goggles today, some cheapo speedos. i think i'm going to sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeemmmmmmmmmmmmm tml. hehehe, swimming swimming... i'll make it 40 laps this time round, just love swimming.

yui, my new love...

ok, i'm pretty crazy of this girl name yui, the singer for rolling star. she's so pretty. *melts* i think i'm like siao over her. imagine this (bue tahan, must say) PRETTY, VERY VERY EXTREMELY PRETTY girl is on stage singing, and quite obviously she can't hit the higher notes due to some throat problem or she really cannot hit the high notes in a live gig. i was like, "wow, even with such difficulty, she's still singing *sob sob*". i guess the others that's like passersby will be, "OMG, disappointing performance!" or "bad vocals, next" or something like that. well, at this point, i'll be a little self-centered, I DUN CARE! she's pretty...

today's lesson was kinda short, so the class went for soccer at noon. before that, was in alvin's car for lunch. lol. for like years, i haven't be as terrified as today. but the ride was good, comfy and sweet. thks alvin for the save ride. and that one misjudgment made my heart flop. lol...

soccer was kinda fun, but i sucked at it big time. stretched my left knee and resprain my left ankle. wth. sucked at goalie too. so i'll just play for fun.

cheers, have a good day ahead.

swimming is good for your health...

went for a swim with binny yesterday. it's pretty good coz i've achieved a new distance. 30 laps. yeah. starting small for now. want a more pro name for it? linear displacement = 30 laps. muahaha. the pool water was very dirty, my eyes cannot survive in the water for like 10 laps, so either borrowed binny's goggles or swim with my eyes closed. so i ask binny to check on my swim technique, he's a licensed lifeguard btw, so that bastard go do a side stroke to check on my breast stroke. i went, "what the hell". coz it's like damn extra, everyone's doing either free or breast, not side stroke. who's side stroking? i think the lifeguard on duty will go "hao liao kia" at him. haha. but the funny thing is to see the other china men swimming breast stroke like baby splashing water. it's like, "go watch and learn how ppl swim, you're doing the wrong way".

today was pretty good. got an A for my common test! i didnt do much study for it, but i believe it's not me, but God. so glory to God, the A is for and from God. woohoo... thn the bad thing is the experiment, all of my friends are in pairs, and i'm doing it solo. damn shit man. then amri came up with a joke...

lect: dun move the motor disc with your hands, move it using the motor shaft
amri: hyper dash (hyper dash is one of the tamiya car motors)
class: *laugh*
lect: my phone also have motor leh. *flicks phone* see...
amri: wah... and you put it in your pocket... (nvm if you dun know wat he meant, but it's ... you know...)
class: *class*

well, sums up my day. cheers. *beer!!!*

hide...

sometimes you fear about the future. maybe, you just thought too much about it. i feel that some people remain stagnant while thinking about the future. gotta move on.
there's probably a driving force for me to go on. i want to be silent. someone that actually thinks, or even daydreams, rather than blurting our nonsense. silence don't mean lack of humour. maybe, silence can be humourous. but we'll see how.
this whole week is pretty much studying and fooling around. looking at the schedule i'm in, it's tough. morning to late afternoon, for the whole week. however, i didn't regret coming to summer school coz i do believe that it'll help me out somehow in my coming school semester. either having 5 hours off, or thinking of taking Human Factors Module, if it is offered.
i wonder how my friends from the Q class doing in their attachment. hope they are well. may the good God bless you pips!

sinking...

my dad went into bed early today. i'm kindof worried now. i've just prayed that he will get better tml. faith ed, faith.
it's freaking me out nowadays, coz my mom dreamt of dad gone. when mom said that, i remain calm on my skin but i was terrified and shaken on the in my guts. i'll pray for my parents once in a while now.
fundamentals of control systems... dun be fooled by it. human reasoning, it sounds friendly and easy. but that's bull shit. it's another module packed with loads of mathematics, not much theories, but alot of mathematics. 1st chapter is ez, but the second is not. chapter 2 is packed full of laplace transform. it's like back to math when you thought you're out of it. Engineering Mathematics 1 & 2 & 3A, and you rest for a sem mathless (thank God i took Advance Engineering Mathematics 1, so i've got alittle mathy within myself). you forgot all your stuff, and, maybe, even forgot your basic integration, and now, you're heading straight into the pit hole of calculus. muahaha....
tml will be a good day. God bless my dad. Amen...

swim... i wanna swim...

sian... i wanna swim. i don't mind public pools. but tired... i'll just sink in the pool... swim!!!

gentle nightmare

i'm not too sure whether i can completely classify this whole post as a nightmare, coz it's more like a future reality to me.
it was this morning. i dreamt that my parents passed away. i was kindof freaked out during the whole dream coz i depend on them alot. i was in a state of lost, depressed. i remembered me not knowing my heading. it was quite bad. however, i met my dad and mom later in the dream, i was relieved by it.
this sparked me in the later morning, before my breakfast. i was thinking, way if my parents were gone, where will i head, who can i depend on later. all these brings relate myself back to God. can i depend on Him? in wat way can i depend on Him? all the bible and such results in my faith? or it's the touch of His hands let me know Him more and want to pursue his righteousness.
i'm caught between the feelings of being glad and confused. it's such that i'm too materialistic. i never venture into spiritual development further. school, influences, sometimes even the church. or it's just me, discouraging myself. i dunno. coz i'm not sure who to look to now.

sick... bah

when i thought my asthma is long gone, it came back again on the second day of malaysia trip. well, as usual, being there kindof sucks. no internet and my relatives kept gambling. i managed to refrain myself from it and played my com with jo instead. no fireworks this year too. only able to see the other houses firing away mini grenades and stuff. jo and i thought of bombing the mosque tower down, kindof cool.

jo: you know a fire cracker to us is nothing but to an ant it's like a C4. we bomb the tower down it's like a firecracker to God.

i'm having bloody breathing difficulties now and i don't have an inhalant to ease it. God, it's up to You man. let Your will be done.

speaking about that, i haven't been in church for the past 3 weeks. *guilty guilty guilty*
1. overslept and having a depression over the murderous mathematics paper.
2. overslept and spend time at home with family.
3. malaysiaing

next week, i'm back on kids duty. i'm not sure of anything man. didnt lead for like months, ever since the switch, i was distant to it, so are the musicians. God, tasukete kudasai!

i shall finish my milo and rest now, gonna go to my unc's place later.

reunion dinner was a blast

vic that pussy kind of backed of the initial plan of going to drink, so left mr foo and i going around the city to look at some stuff for fun. before that, i msged chibi that i'm going, coz bored mah, and yoshi's psp is fun.
everyone is kindof on time man, quite surprised 0_0. went to the same steamboat place by conquering the whole mini van to the team. muahaha, i'm sitting at the entrance! if i dun go out, no one can!
there were fireworks (money wasting) and blown up grill (pwnage) while eating. been quite some time seeing these guys liao. pretty cool.
reached home around 11.20, took a bath while i'm thinking of a new groove. i still can't get aeroplane right, but i need a new groove. now is the time where i am able to play like siao, but! my right index finger is hurting, meaning, cannot pop. sigh...
exams are over... how you pips reading have a great time in the lunar new year! grab as many red packs as possible!!!

dear finger

dear right index finger,
thank you for being a very huge encourager and playing a huge key in bass playing. i'm really blessed by your superb performance and having a good learning proficiency. i feel very glad that you're part of me and i hope you too feel happy that you're part of God's creation in me.
lately i've been missing you. i have a feeling that you are not well and you're not able to play the bass. every attempt for me to 'pop' a string, i felt a teardrop landed on the pickguard. oh! how can this be it? what have i done wrong!
get well soon my precious and let us re-live our blissful moments together.

love,
ed

monday blues

binny came over my place to study today. well, we did study but we're like going around and stuff. watching tv and laughing at some stupid mvs.

----some jap mv that is not nicely syncronised----
ed: that's a budget mv. there's only 2 settings and the vocals are not sync.
binny: *sits on the bench and watches tv* hey, she's an anime song singer. i want one of her songs.
ed: i think the dancers behind her are much prettier than her.
----some jap mv----
ed: that's a budget mv.
binny: being in the same place playing instruments don't mean budget. maybe they are lazy to move.
ed: look, there's no drummer.
both: *laughs*
ed: maybe the drummer is a sessionist. the guitarist looks cool.
----mayday's mv----
ed: wah, they are stars and they get cute girls.
binny: *laughs*

well. monday blues. i've got this feeling that i've grasp everything and my conscience just tells me that i'm not going to do well when i go and study more. well, computer language is a language, so it's like learning english i guess. you can't study all of the english but you need to have a foundation of english.

well... good luck to all you pips taking mpi.

running away from the cops

i think i've got too much of prison break till i'm actually exercising in my dreams. i was with linc and running away from the cops. lol... i managed to climb like 4-5 low walls and when i woke up, my heart is beating pretty fast, just like i've ran a mile or 2. it's pretty cool and the prob is i thought it was real, running and all that. or is it God that's telling me to start running and get skinny. haha.

edmund says:
jumped over 4-5 low walls
·!¦[·sh90·]¦!・[| Ryuuki-Ilaeir-Kei |] says:
you're trying to escape reality! XD;
edmund says:
haha
·!¦[·sh90·]¦!・[| Ryuuki-Ilaeir-Kei |] says:
and have overcome hurdles
edmund says:
if i can escape reality, i think i'm a cabbage by now
·!¦[·sh90·]¦!・[| Ryuuki-Ilaeir-Kei |] says:
if your legs were heavy means you're burdened by responsibilities XD
edmund says:
hope there's pretty girls around me praying for me to be awake
·!¦[·sh90·]¦!・[| Ryuuki-Ilaeir-Kei |] says:
LOL
edmund says:
yeah
edmund says:
should i nap again?!

well... haha... prison break madness and i'm STILL NOT STUDYING! i told myself, "after lunch, you're going to study." instead, i went to sleep and prison break started. haha. i shall finish all my mpi lecture notes today. muahaha. and tml i'll start on dcnt. maybe, i should jio some pips and study with me. coz teaching makes studying more effective, y not teach some mpi and lecch it from there *kekekekeke*...

oh well, after dinner after dinner, study study study...

new converse! yay!

chang chang chang chang! finally, this indecisive boy got his pair of new shoes after visiting the converse shops of vivo, queensway and jurongpoint and made a total trip of 7 times with the approximate in-shop time of 2 hours. woohoo!

i'm pretty happy that i got it and i thought it looks good after the change of laces from complete brown to white. so there is a contrast, i thought. muahaha. got it for 60 bucks and yubin's dad was like, "wah! that's was popular in the 80s and now you're buying it for 60 bucks!" my reply was, "nian qian ren (young person)*points at myself*" haha. i thought my dad will go nuts over me buying this pair of shoes coz it don't worth 60 bucks. i do know that. my lao pek pek instincts told me that. however, i'm still a boy.

so what makes a good shoe (edo's edition):
-looks good on you
-you like before wearing it
-you like while wearing it
-your band members are wearing it
-looks good while wearing your usuals (burms and polo tee!!! ^^)
-simplicity (less is more)

well... haven't been studying so i guess i need to buck up. teck yang came over and that was my 1st time studying. haha. super funny. i taught him like the little things nia, the things that i thought it's pretty simple, thn he told me he learnt alot. haha. dunno y. i guess teaching pips also allows you to understand better too. like all the funny concepts, you will be able to grasps it. cool eh?!

valentine's coming up, i've got no plans yet but i'm certainly finding something to do on a thursday night so that i can beat valentine's blues and coffskipcellsteamboatdinnercoff. well, fat boy finding dates will be quite a tough job, but i dun mind using that day to hang out with good and old buddies too. have beer and let our drunkard brains do the talking. muahaha. so much of beer, i didnt even drink much now.

i think it's time for me to work on lyrics. needa write write and write. muahaha.....

loo loo loo... still no band name...

wanted to get a pair of converse this late morning and went out with mr foo to get it. well, we kindof like stuck in the converse shop for nearly an hour but i cant make a decision. i think i'm worst than an ah soh. mr foo's conclusion, with some edo's english edit, "designers dun design shoes that are on demand, they design for the sake of designing it." well, that's why we're stuck in the converse shop. the denim shoes are very nice, but they have that thread pattern on the side. i like the black shoe, but it's phat lace. i like the skull shoes, but i dun think church allow me to wear that. i like that normal looking shoe, but it looks more like a school shoe. well, the list went on and i'm off empty handed and to school alone.

was going to meet pikachu and justin to study, but they are meeting a tutor. i dun need a tutor for the time being, so i went to the library to study. well, failed. didnt managed to even complete a page. called up sean and wah la, i'm in the scc room learning new stuff on the bass.

i've got this sudden liking towards bass, and this bass thing, i admit, is drawing out alot of time. but who cares. bass rocks. i hope my schedule next year will be better, so i can put more time into avionics club and the band. everything's juicy and the only thing that's lack from me is skill. so must practice practice and practice until the skin on the right index top joint fleshy's skin has thickened. it's kind of irritating coz i cant bite that area. booz.

just need to work on my timing man. after jam, it's back to "so what's our band's name". went through all the words that is able to fit into "morning" and even took out an arty film textbk for some vocabulary assistance. well, failed.

some interesting names:
the wallet; root beer; fried kuay teow; white page morning; mechanical morning; the chair; 4-1; morning darkness; jax"dunno how to spell"position paradox..... and some more i cannot remember

on the way back, there were a few lower sec kids sitting behind me, one of them was kind of funny whn he said, "eh wo yi qian you gen hen duo nu hai zi chu qu leh (i've went out with alot of girls). nu hai zi hor bi jiao hao xiang chu (girls are better to be with)" well, all i can say is that he taken his 1st step already. hahahahaha. the way he put it is super funny. he's trying to convince the other guys that being with girls is good and he's pretty zealous about sharing his experience.

ok, i guess this is too much for you to read. so tata...

search of a band name.

the band was formed like 3 weeks back and still we haven't got a name yet. so difficult to think of one.

anyway, went to school yesterday for an interview to be a committee member in avionics club. got bombarded by meng kiat (current president), especially the "china one just flew by". after that played pool which kind of sucky coz i lost most of the games i play, kind of felt that i've lost my form or degraded. headed down to vivo city, guess wat, with slippers, white polo tee and basketball shorts. ain't it the best attire to roam around vivo? republic food court is a scam, never go there and eat. one plate of nasi lemak with ngoh hiang, some funny pineapple chicken and long beans cost 5.20. mine is not that bad. there's this dude who bought a plate full cost 11.20. haha. i did rather use that cash to savour carl's jr or subway with a 1 footer.

after dinner, 3 of us, ceyao, vic and i, decided to prank the converse shop we went before dinner. coz the pips in there didn't bother to serve us the 1st time so we thought that we could give them a second chance and IF they serve us, i'll buy a pair of shoes (which i needed it lah, some bugger go still my cheapo f10+). well, we wanna see whether they would serve a rugged up person like vic and i am who wore slippers, knee length shorts and polo tee. time limit staying the in shop = 5mins. OBVIOUSLY, they didnt serve us. vic, "ZE YANG FAIL LIAO ARH? (they failed this like that?)" thn we walked off. both mr foo and mr yong said the 2 sales personnels we shocked and walked up to us. haha. super funny. in the end, we didnt buy anything. mr foo also didnt get his A|X.

slept through the morning today. well. bassing from 12 to around 1+. my slap technique is getting better thn the last time. pop well, still need some work. i'm trying out something like the double stroke on the drums, super fun... new grooves comming up!. woohoo...

yay... no more aem 1

well, have you ever thought of suicide? you can try out the new product called advance engineering mathematics part 1. satisfaction guaranteed!!!
well, i kindof got worst thn raped in the morning. sigh...
time to groove man.
"i like pleasure spiked with pain. music is my aeroplane. it's my aeroplane!"

my bass... revived!

i'm so glad to play my bass again. it's back! it's back! i tightened the truss rod and there's no more visible "warppage". but my G string, yup it's called the G string, still can play the 19th fret. worst of all, aeroplane needs the 21st fret, which i dun have. lol.

fun fun fun... bass bass bass... my bro just quarreled with my mom. i was thinking how she was to me in the pass.
present - "edwin, you got do your homework?" bro sleeping.... "edwin ah, you got do your homework?"... (countless times later) "CHAO CHAO CHAO (noisy noisy noisy), WO JAI SUI JIAO LAH! (i'm sleeping lah)"...
past - *ed is sleeping* *suddenly he got a caned out of no where*

so this is how i'm brought up. i don't expect him to be perfect, but he's just nuts. just like teck yang's "iron balls" to replace his long lost balls.

self-centered

today was quite bad for me. i dunno how to explain man, it's just plainly bad. i felt that i'm neither here nor there, only get along with binny, the band and some closer buddies in scc grp. other thn that, they feel kindof distant to me. like wat sean said, "we are only here for the room and nothing else." well, this will be my last time attending a scc meeting. the most i'll attend is the monthy performance, when i'm needed, and the band jamming sessions.

i was thinking, "so wat is the committee for?" the problems are already identified but there's no changes. well, i guess it's also good coz i get to learn the mistakes that is done. as a proud being myself, i cannot afford to stumble on huge mistakes and not noticing. if i'm going to take up a position of some kind soon in avionics club, i've got to know wat to step on and not. if i don't, criticisms will fly. i felt kind of shit everytime i step into the club house.

and another thing is the church. i think it is for me to reduse. i'm feeling alittle out of place now, with the compulsory stuff to do. i felt kind of stretched and i wondered if adam can make a choice, so can i make one?

bah...

bass problems

woot. i tried doing some simple bass solo, the slow and funky kind, and manged to put some groovy thingy in it. kind if glad man.
been listening to aeroplane by rhcp. lol. freaking childish way of singing, but kind of fun. however, the music, wahlao... power, i haven't even get to play it nicely yet.
unfortunately, i my bass went from bad to worst. i think i either some action problem from my bridge or wrong string gauge. super irritated. at first, i can't play the 19th fret, not i cant play the 12th fret even though the neck don't seem to warp as much as the "19th fret problem" from my point of view.
NEED A SOLUTION FAST!

frisbee...

after like 1 month or more, here i am, ACSI playing frisbee. my ankle is not completely healed yet, but who cares, i'm game. well, the team was quite balanced but i've lost my form.
amaris can throw better thn me you know?! earnest say one. well, i do agree, my throws suck. neither straight nor leveled. quite a disappointment. i need more practice!
and for the "up to 7" game, we lost. lol. sian. but quite funny seeing ppl running around. i'm pretty lazy, walking and staying at the back of the offensive pack and either being ignored by the opposition or got chased for no reason.
opposition got the first 2 points, so the score was 0-2. then went up to 0-3.
after 0-3, hon and cliff got a plan. well, quite a cheap one i can say, cliff take the right end zone and hon take the left, i'll retrieve the disk from the pool and just send it. well it worked for 2 rounds, so the score was 2-3.
the game went on with all the good throws and i was quite in tuned to it, but still not as good as amaris's throws, dun even need to talk about earnest's.
score went up to 6-6 and both sides are desperate, full team man-on. woohoo. hon got the disk and threw it. the disk found it's way through the crowd and i ran towards it. i dived. BUT! sian... i got the disk when it just barely scrapped the grass. not enough power man. lol. worst, i twisted my ankle. sian...
the game went on and opposition won. good game man.

new life, i hope...

hello everyone. i hope there's somebody here. haha.
i've changed to this blog, reason being, i got pwned by the login in blogger. i went like "wah lao, how can i login sia, keep login in to the wrong user and wat is my actually user for my yuanjie25?"
so here i am, new blog, new life.
i'm still quite attracted to my previous template so i'm still using it now, only the change of colour nia.

so whassup in my life?

1. more work
2. less girls
3. BAND!
4. more practises
5. i think i'm trying to woo some girl, i'll see whether it works out
6. more sleep
7. solitude
8. bibling and always stuck at certain paragraph to think.
9. reflections
10. more hatred (which is quite bad, i think it's pride coz i personally dun like proud people especially when they dun realise it. but this is bad! Jesus say must love your enemies as your neighbour. working on it. working on it.)

1. more work...

work has been piling up. now I&E is nearly over (good work mates!), i'm left with ftas and loads of studying. wah lao, my precious sleep...

2. less girls...

well, work is inversely proportional to girls. you get what i mean...

3. BAND!...

hurhur...

4. more practises...

with the 2 young prodigies, how can i not practice? so i'm working hard on it and wearing off my frets now.

5. i think... blah blah blah...

well, see how 1st bah. all i can say is that this current engineer in the making is quite boring.

6. more sleep...

lack of it man... seriously lack of it. where did my 8 hours go?

7.solitude...

nowadays, i'm leaving a part of my time to be alone. i like this time where i can reflect on myself and just think of how my day went and how to improve myself. i also consider this time as my work time. even though my surrounding is full of people, i'll still be in my own world. of course, there's a very bad side effect. i get irritated easily.

8. bibling... blah blah blah...

well, i'm stuck at matthew. lol. cell's finishing mark going into luke and here i am, matthew. but i love the parables. some of them is not as straightforward as it looks, like the one "the kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed". took me some time to think of it, to picture it. still, i dun really understand. need God's wisdom. woohoo...

9. reflections...

i think i'm becoming older doing this. it's like part of the midlife crisis thingy. haha. well, i'm 18 going 19 but there's a 12 year old in me.

10. more hatred...

it's a bad thing. i guess everyone has pride, even the humblest person has pride. i do admit that mine sometimes is uncontrollable. i dislike hating people but looking at my tolerance, i need to improve. either God is helping me or it's the art of the devil. well, if there's room to improve, i shall improve. Jesus can love the sinners and tax collectors. sometimes, i felt that i'm like a hypocrite or rather i have been a hypocrite myself. my actions and stuff. i need to repent. hmm..

3 more weeks and then it's playday.... cant wait to play!