come to talk

i was thinking, if you're in a situation where it's going to be edging your gut tolerance level, what will you do? haha. 2 years back, i'm a game planner for scc camp, totally freaked myself out during the nightwalk. mandy and i with a couple of incense, mandy's amulet and a candle, going through the nightwalk route. only the 2 of us were walking through and even before we took a step into the corridor, which we expect it to be lighted up at that time but it wasn't.

this time, i'm under johnny's guidance. haha. at first, i was just suggesting to him my idea coz i thought that just nightwalking is pretty boring, and now, i'm one of the station masters and making ideas for the nightwalk. one thing to the making of a good nightwalk is to be the participant spiritually while you plan, knowing what to use to scare and what are the potential loophole during worst comes to worst situations, like missing participant. haha. so, the discussion actually kind shrunk my balls abit before heading home with zhi wei on the bus and yunyun with me on the train.

yunyun managed to talk me out for walking her home, so i'm pretty guilty and worried when my train stop arrives. well, she's still alive at home, so i'm in peace now. haha. sweet dreams my friends.

more jamming coming up, screw sdar for pushing jamming times from 5 onwards, thanks qiang and yunyun for this info. i made 2 enemies, sdar and odex. it's pretty childish to do that, but well, bo bian.

with eyes closed

sometimes when you feel like helping someone, you are just being dragged down by your incompetence. sometimes when you feel like talking tosomeone and you want to encourage her, you are just being dragged down, again by your incompetence. sometimes you worry for her, you wat to reach our your helping hand to save her from her cries, you are stopped... by none other then you incompetence. how sad then yo uwant her to at least see you and have some longer replies from her. how sad...

lack of sleep...

got home this morning at around 5.30am, from pioneer mall. spent the night and part of the day over at macdonalds teaching qiuyun and doing some of my revision. i'm not too sure whether is it a good thing or a bad thing. having a girl to be with you all the way till 5.20am, or teaching her more then you do your work. i'm in a dilemma. was pretty surprised that she learnt pretty fast, can say 1 night and learnt most of the content of the module that i took in year 1. well, for the past 3 days, i've been teaching qiangqiang too, the pimp in the band. wish them the best for tml's ETE! BRING BACK A C GRADE FOR ME PIPS! I LOVE BOTH OF YOU! =.=... the tensions from the lack of sleep

got home and managed to catch some 30 mins of sleep and got up at 7am with yunyun wake up call. BUT! i hit my snooze button and went on for another 45 mins. haha! late for my paper about 10 mins but i managed to finish it with 20 marks of not knowing how to do the qns. i'm so tired.

i found a new way to style my hair. i shall try it tml! haha...

yawn

this week is slack week, meaning i'm not planning to do much work and sleep more. it's pretty good to be that way, even though it does not have any purpose and doesn't contribute to anything. it just feels good.

went to the dentist today. after more thn 3 bloody years, finally, i went into the kid's hell. when i'm like, just like other kids, i hated the dentist. however, whn i'm older in the secondary school, i kinda liked the dentist coz not only you get cleaner set of teeth after the trip, you get to skip some classes too!

so i woke up at 9.45am, washed up and headed down to the dental clinic for filling of a really deep cavity. got there at a few minutes pass 10, registered myself for a walk-in and waited. FOR A BLOODY HOUR! and headed in for hell. haha. it's a long procedure, even though it's 2 teeth that is required to be filled. i'm jabbed with anestatic, my upper lip is still numb, and the dentist start sanding off the top of my teeth. 45 mins later, it's done! yay... no more cavities!

heading down to ben's for a hair cut tml. rocks, new hair. new rock!

God bless...

i guess some of you guys know i'm still pretty aggressive in my speech, especially coming from my band members *points fingers at them* for influencing me with jrock. but man, yakuza sour rocks. had jamming yesterday and tried something new, nothing much, just pumping in some distortion with some usual chords i play. the huge leap is from some usual sad kinda feel of love song to a power pack slow rock chinese song with numerous screaming from qiang qiang, our band's vocalist and womanizer in my point of view *haha, jkjk lah*. qiang qiang is a good guy, he very good one, he not womanizer lah, it's just that girl get attracted to her, sometimes i too feel alittle jealous about it. had a very good time jamming and we're attempting on a new song, our debut original. dunno how will it sound like, i'll mainly do the arrangement, let qiang qiang do the melody, chinese lyrics and vocal. superb!

finally, project is kinda over, left the report to be completed. superb, but i kinda lazy to write the report sia. Thank God for being with me all these time, really feel the peace even though i was about to break down again yesterday troubleshooting the joystick. ha. alot of plastic fumes encircles around my table due to my soldering iron accidentally melting the plastic of the joystick. Bless God.

youth song on the roll, yeah yeah yeah...

problems are gifts

baybeats was a blast. it was my first time there and i only caught 2 items. pretty stupid to be in the city with jay and ken in the afternoon to loiter around the wcg area and to find daphne, which turns out that she's not in good spirits due to the lack of sleep so i kinda left her after i said hi, pretty bad me i think. got home and stoned till david elliot pestered me to go for baybeats, to catch blindside. heavy metal christian rock band from sweden. so, called up kian and jay, met them up and went to esplanade, catching up was ken when we're in hmv and qiang qiang in the nokia stage. the nokia stage was the wrong venue! DUDE! some solo acoustic guitarist was there playing some slow contemporaries. but the good thing is, i saw a really cute girl, can't help myself to not stop glancing at her, ken even caught me alot of times when i turn to my left to have a glimpse. very cute and pretty. it's that kind of environment where you are in some soft acoustic music and you saw this pretty girl. pretty romantic eh? sounds pretty lame too.

and of coz, we realised that we're in the wrong venue when it's 10.40pm and the guitarist was still playing. jay helped me to seek the real venue and we rushed there, missing out the mosh pit and was really at the back. i could see elliot being carried up and after that he stood just under the nose of BLINDSIDE! OH MY GOSH! this is the first time i have enjoyed metal so much. it's very good. christian (the vocalist) sings and screams with quality. really good live, really good. they probably started out from live gigs and now with 9 albums. got their album after the live, the great depression. WOOT! rocks. it's not too heavy for me and i kinda progressively liked it. i'm not too used to metal yet, so i guess it's a great start. they dun have alot of solos to begin with, most of it is the choice of chords and notes, very good stuff.

thanks jay and ken for the part sponsor of the album. superb stuff.

was in church today. don't really know why i actually wanted to go and do sound duty in replacement for meng yock. i don't know why am i called for this ministry either, it's the most humbling ministry ever. i think this is how i get my composure. i can safely say that only hardcore ppl enjoy doing sound duty, and darren, you're one hardcore lad, it's a good thing. got there and God was ahead, i can feel it. i wasn't sulking or not wanting to do, i was actually quite enjoying it till i have to go down to youth for drumming. got back up after drumming for michael watson's sermon. really superb, this is one of the times where i feel that God welcomes me into church. i felt really blessed as his sermon applied directly to my current situation, which i really thank God that i actually came up to main service for sermon. God's way.

problems are gifts. like an eagle, we can't just stay in the nest and be spiritually fed, sleep and spiritually fed again. we need to move and grow, like how eagles learn now to fly. we need to grow.

if God is with me, project will not be against me. lets go PV05, complete the project tml.

packing up is pretty good today too, not sure why, it's God. bless Him.